Question Mark?

Sometime some question seem to be only have one answer but a fren of me said every question also have two answer either u know or u don know.There is a lot of question seem to be no answer for me because of i dare not want know it and i feel like knowing it may not be an advantage to me or i think i already knew it but not very confirm only....



that's why when i heard of one of mine customer said that there is a superior is very predictable and wat she said will be truthly happen in the future.So i very happy and the next two day i go with mine fren to c this superior.Then when i reach there i feel like scare to ask some question which i want to know the answer because is too many ppl there.So,finally until mine turn already i go and sit beside the superior and ask her wat i want to know about mine future...then she said to me...



The answer she give me is full of question mark???



Until now i still thinking of going again and ask her wat do she mean for the answer.Then when i talk with mine customer about that,mine customer said if there is no privacy why don u ask more detail ragards to ur question.After a while i sit down and think about it.I know wat i suppose to do already.I need to stated out what exactly i want to ask the superior for another time.Then after a while of working...i seem to be forget wat i have plan before that.



When i writing this blog,i am thinking of not to go and ask for the answer just depend on the way that i have fated to go through.What i have to go through i can't escape.Waiting seem to be the only way i can do now until the day come...the answer will be more clearer and clearer.



Day passing by every fast until i can't make up mine mind so that may be i could change it into what i want or may be how hard i do also cannot even change.Nobody know the answer...nobody know!

Diary

I don't used to write diary last time because diary is some very personal thing that only can let us remember our past and not to let other people know.But afterward,i think diary is a very useful for us to know ourself better and to express our feelings.Even until now,i don't write diary because mine memory is quite good,i can remember all the happy,sad,bore,good,bad,lonely day...i just only how to talk only.hehehehe...

About last two week...i was very sad,bore,mine mind is empty,no idea wat will be mine future.Sometime,i want to tell someone something but i afraid this and that...At last,i end out with very frustrated,sitting alone thinking something.Those who know me they will notice that.Then...i keep it and let it be what it will be...sound like very useless right.

Other than that,i keep on working working working hard to get rid of thinking something,someone,sometime and so on...beside that nothing big happen just like normal working eat sleep working eat sleep everyday.Sometime thinking of going vacation but thinking of going alone scare already.Nothing to do is all the time be with me.

My two fren left early this month let me feel more alone next time because nobody can let me bully already.Then somebody,mine fren is going to married end of the year.Then i feel more more boring already.If the clock can stop in one time,this world will have full of joy and happiness.This is what i thinklah,maybe not?Life.......hai... full of regret,struggle and negative.

Life have to go on..the next day i become myself do what i suppose to do which i don't like to(con people con myself).Tired already sleeplor...ZZzzzzz