Different life!

Sitting in front of the PC,
looking around many things,nothing
checking email,no mail
waiting fren to online chating,no online
playing game,no point!

Everyday the same routine,
waiting for the day to come,
something missing in the piece of my life,
may be no target,no aggressive,no stamina,no hardworking,no way to go...

Sleeping in peace at night
dreaming about something
wake up with reality
continue the things yesterday
stop where i am standing now.

Hoping tomorow became better...
really really better...
...zzzzzzz

Lonely Planet!

Today,eating a fried rice in a restoran alone looking at the people walk around the feeling is like the world is only me alone everybody already go far far away from me.Every people ask me how was ur trip to HK,i have no idea how to answer instead i just said oklor...The word seem like i am cheating everyone those who ask me.Going alone to a place which i not familiar,and very far from the place where i born and stay i thought i can forget something which i ought to forget getting something which i have never ever regret to have it but it seem like i am dreaming during the whole trip.

Lonely planet actually is a magazine,mine fren use this name as a drink which the drink taste sour and sweet with a green colour outlook.Drinking this drink really make me feel that i am alone in this planet no target no direction no light no way can i go...may be i should go back to the past not to come here...but reality seem like not possible for me to think that and always opposite to what i want...time can let us grow in good way or bad way.Sometime i thinking of growing in a bad way so i have no worry no responsible to what i have done and people can notice me.

Living like a undead everyday wearing a mask go work come back home eat bath and sleep really bore and unreal.Getting to know more friends and have more outdoor activities with fren is just a reason for cheating myself.Everything start will always have a ending,everything u want to forget u will always remember...hope that time can past very fast so that sad things can be rub off from the memory.

Fate!!!

Yesterday,I receive a sms.This sms prove that i am fail,it make me sad,make me crazy,make me struggle until i can't breath and i cry in the bed.It really let me know that something in this world is unreachable no matter how hard u work for it,it is not urs that means not urs.how u force it,it will not come through...What is it?Love...

This sms really change me alot alot...it let me know my girl is not her.I have to go forward to look for another,may success or failure..i also don't know.May be i still have to struggle to live for a time of period 1 day,1 month,1 year or more than that...my mind is empty,nothing to think,nothing to want,nothing to decide,nothing to dream.Life without dream is like a body without heart.Heartless make ppl sick,make ppl cruel,make ppl negative.Feel like world is going to end not fair to us.

Forget someone is very very difficult,some more is the one u like it will be more struggle.Life always have to make decision.Decide to proceed or to stop.Is there anyone can give me a guide should i stop or should i wait...i am very very tired now,my heart start to work slowly,slowly and slowly......

Question Mark?

Sometime some question seem to be only have one answer but a fren of me said every question also have two answer either u know or u don know.There is a lot of question seem to be no answer for me because of i dare not want know it and i feel like knowing it may not be an advantage to me or i think i already knew it but not very confirm only....



that's why when i heard of one of mine customer said that there is a superior is very predictable and wat she said will be truthly happen in the future.So i very happy and the next two day i go with mine fren to c this superior.Then when i reach there i feel like scare to ask some question which i want to know the answer because is too many ppl there.So,finally until mine turn already i go and sit beside the superior and ask her wat i want to know about mine future...then she said to me...



The answer she give me is full of question mark???



Until now i still thinking of going again and ask her wat do she mean for the answer.Then when i talk with mine customer about that,mine customer said if there is no privacy why don u ask more detail ragards to ur question.After a while i sit down and think about it.I know wat i suppose to do already.I need to stated out what exactly i want to ask the superior for another time.Then after a while of working...i seem to be forget wat i have plan before that.



When i writing this blog,i am thinking of not to go and ask for the answer just depend on the way that i have fated to go through.What i have to go through i can't escape.Waiting seem to be the only way i can do now until the day come...the answer will be more clearer and clearer.



Day passing by every fast until i can't make up mine mind so that may be i could change it into what i want or may be how hard i do also cannot even change.Nobody know the answer...nobody know!

Diary

I don't used to write diary last time because diary is some very personal thing that only can let us remember our past and not to let other people know.But afterward,i think diary is a very useful for us to know ourself better and to express our feelings.Even until now,i don't write diary because mine memory is quite good,i can remember all the happy,sad,bore,good,bad,lonely day...i just only how to talk only.hehehehe...

About last two week...i was very sad,bore,mine mind is empty,no idea wat will be mine future.Sometime,i want to tell someone something but i afraid this and that...At last,i end out with very frustrated,sitting alone thinking something.Those who know me they will notice that.Then...i keep it and let it be what it will be...sound like very useless right.

Other than that,i keep on working working working hard to get rid of thinking something,someone,sometime and so on...beside that nothing big happen just like normal working eat sleep working eat sleep everyday.Sometime thinking of going vacation but thinking of going alone scare already.Nothing to do is all the time be with me.

My two fren left early this month let me feel more alone next time because nobody can let me bully already.Then somebody,mine fren is going to married end of the year.Then i feel more more boring already.If the clock can stop in one time,this world will have full of joy and happiness.This is what i thinklah,maybe not?Life.......hai... full of regret,struggle and negative.

Life have to go on..the next day i become myself do what i suppose to do which i don't like to(con people con myself).Tired already sleeplor...ZZzzzzz

Topic 1:Perfect Wolrd

First of all,I would like to introduce myself,my name is Mr DT.


People use to call me Dvd Tan,大坏蛋,daddy tan....David Tan is the real name.


Don't simply call my name already..ok?



Our first topic today is Perfect World.


In ur opinion what do u think of Perfect World?


Is that exist?


Are u living in a Perfect World?


Do u want to live in a Perfect World?


U guess what is Perfect Wolrd?


Actually Perfect World is a online game only no need to guess so difficult.hahaha...



Seen like back to the past when i still studying at school.


Don't have idea how to write an essay,but just simply write what it come to mine mind.


Thinking of who will be the next victim for me to steal the food?


Thinking of who will be our topic to laugh for?


Thinking of who will be the next people for me to bully?


Thinking of a lot of nonsense things...


past...


at the moment...


future...




Life is never been easy for me and u.


But Perfect World really exist if u believe it!


I have been to Perfect World when i play this game.hehehe...





So sorry that i have cheated u all.


But...


In Perfect World that is no perfect guy and girl.


In Not Perfect World that is some perfect guy and girl like u and me.


Perfect or not perfect is a matter of what do u think u are?


Other people have their own personal view on u.


U rich?u poor?u bad,I nice?u ugly,I handsome?u dumb,I smart and many many....


U sense something???just joking don't angry ar...





As a human,we should fight for our right.


Do what u want as long as is not regret for future.


freedom will be on ur side if u stand beside it.


As long as u happy,i happy others have to make us happy.





Reading is easy writing is hard.


Nonsense things by Mr DT should stop here.


Last word,be urself u will be happy and there is Perfect Wolrd out there!

THE END

Last last word,every week will have one nonsense essay.Give me some title and comment.TQ.