Lonely Planet!

Today,eating a fried rice in a restoran alone looking at the people walk around the feeling is like the world is only me alone everybody already go far far away from me.Every people ask me how was ur trip to HK,i have no idea how to answer instead i just said oklor...The word seem like i am cheating everyone those who ask me.Going alone to a place which i not familiar,and very far from the place where i born and stay i thought i can forget something which i ought to forget getting something which i have never ever regret to have it but it seem like i am dreaming during the whole trip.

Lonely planet actually is a magazine,mine fren use this name as a drink which the drink taste sour and sweet with a green colour outlook.Drinking this drink really make me feel that i am alone in this planet no target no direction no light no way can i go...may be i should go back to the past not to come here...but reality seem like not possible for me to think that and always opposite to what i want...time can let us grow in good way or bad way.Sometime i thinking of growing in a bad way so i have no worry no responsible to what i have done and people can notice me.

Living like a undead everyday wearing a mask go work come back home eat bath and sleep really bore and unreal.Getting to know more friends and have more outdoor activities with fren is just a reason for cheating myself.Everything start will always have a ending,everything u want to forget u will always remember...hope that time can past very fast so that sad things can be rub off from the memory.

Fate!!!

Yesterday,I receive a sms.This sms prove that i am fail,it make me sad,make me crazy,make me struggle until i can't breath and i cry in the bed.It really let me know that something in this world is unreachable no matter how hard u work for it,it is not urs that means not urs.how u force it,it will not come through...What is it?Love...

This sms really change me alot alot...it let me know my girl is not her.I have to go forward to look for another,may success or failure..i also don't know.May be i still have to struggle to live for a time of period 1 day,1 month,1 year or more than that...my mind is empty,nothing to think,nothing to want,nothing to decide,nothing to dream.Life without dream is like a body without heart.Heartless make ppl sick,make ppl cruel,make ppl negative.Feel like world is going to end not fair to us.

Forget someone is very very difficult,some more is the one u like it will be more struggle.Life always have to make decision.Decide to proceed or to stop.Is there anyone can give me a guide should i stop or should i wait...i am very very tired now,my heart start to work slowly,slowly and slowly......